Is it safe to come out already?

OK, after all those test posts, now I'm ready. But am I ready to hold it steady? This is the umpteenth time that I've "redesigned" my blog, and I went so hard on it that I made a new one entirely from scratch. If you have read any of my other blogs before, I'm sure you'll be familiar with the ever-changing layouts, greatly varying posting schedule, wide gaps between topics and my extremely bad taste in web site design. This here is my I-don't-know-how-many-eth blog, and I'll even bet that I'll be leaving it for a "new project" some time soon.

So to get things into perspective, why did I do this to my site? And more importantly, why the fuck do I still try my hardest to create these "personal blogs" when it's so blatantly obvious that I'm not having any success with them?

I am a professional writer for a couple of high-profile technology news web sites, and the pay is on the high-end. I am 100% self-employed, earning more than $1,000 per month just through writing, and yet I still try to "waste" my time with this personal shit. Which so far doesn't even look the least bit personal. At least not to me.

Is there any hope left in me having a successful personal blog? Was there even any hope at all to begin with?

My goal, with this web site, is to simply become successful. I want to become the Filipino Blogger. I want to become the source. It sickens me to know that there are a bunch of stupid-ass trying-hard bloggers out there who are getting all the attention when they really deserve none of it. I'm not jealous, I just want to put them in their right place.

That's the one and only reason why I still try and keep my personal blogs - because I know that the many others who do it too suck so hard at it. Most of these so-called Filipino Bloggers, or "Pinoy" Bloggers, are crap-writers who can't even use the word "don't" correctly in a sentence. And maybe I'm just nitpicking, but really, if everything can be found and easily had for free, would you settle for less?

Whooza... Let me just catch my breath for a second. I completely lost track of this post's subject. This was supposed to be an introduction, David! I apologize to all the poor souls who got offended. You're lucky I realized I was going way off topic with this post and decided to stop. But I'll still be coming after you in a future post so don't hold your breath.

This is me, I'm David. You can call me Your Worst Nightmare.